I need a push

I love how inviting the back patio is on temperate days like this-it's only 87 degrees out!
Why is is that I am so afraid to spend time working on creative projects? I walk around the house feeling like I HAVE to get some chores done, and end up spending most of my precious days off cleaning/straightening up, trying to catch up to the laundry, organizing the bills, and rearranging the refrigerator so I know what we have in there for dinner that night. I feel like I'm back in high school doing everything possible to avoid my homework, rather than rejoicing in the opportunity to play in my art studio. I get tied down in expectations-mostly my own, perceived pressure from hubby (though he would never judge me, I'm just insecure and he has his own creative side and was engaged for some time to a working artist). I've loaded myself down with so many expectations that I've actually scared myself out of really wanting to do art "work". I read my books, I stare at blogs from other fun individuals who are dedicated to their craft, and I continue to buy supplies all the while telling myself that I can't possibly do any "art" until I have this one thing, whatever silly "thing" it might end up being. I decided to take some pictures and post them of my art space so I can see hopefully from an outside perspective how great I have it and to hopefully nudge myself into doing something fun.

Projects I'd like to get working on:

1. Making a card for woman Matt has worked with from other consulting group for her recent wedding-she's a botany buff


2. ATC cards to trade with Samantha Kira and others


3. Start my own journal


4. Add more work to the 1001 Journal Project #4150

            

On another note, I've been so excited to see the development and beauty of our vegetable garden coming along. Watching these tiny little seeds sprout into seedlings peeping through the soil is such a treat, I really had no idea it would feel so good! I've grown plenty of plants from seed for botany labs, but I wonder if I never allowed myself to feel much about it because I knew that those little seedlings fate was to end up in the trash within a week. These seedlings are mine, my very own, nestled in redwood boxes Matty made and given lots of sunshine love. We still have work to do to get the whole area completed, but considering a month ago there was nothing but concrete and weeds on that side of the house, I'm thrilled :)

Zea mays seedlings

We have three redwood boxes 4 ft x 8 ft 1ft deep