Sorry I'm late (as per usual), we had some wonderful friends over for dinner last night and since it's been the first week of school, I've had a busy week. I could of course make the obvious "begin" reference with the start of a new school year, but I was definitely hoping to stretch myself a little outside of my day to day box for this week's word. I also absolutely loved the hostesses interpretation of the word through a list of powerful beginnings for herself, but for some reason, I just can't seem to "begin" this week.
Maybe that will have to be my interpretation.
I'm terrible at beginnings and that is a fact.
I procrastinate constantly, even when there is no need or reason to.
I'm fascinated with the draw and allure of a blank canvas or a smooth crisp piece of bristol board, the anticipation of what can blossom on the page is almost more enjoyable than the actual artistic process. Mostly though, I think it's just fear of creating something that isn't "good".
I think I'm afraid to begin many things because I finish so little, and I'm always sure that I will fail myself in the end.
Promise to myself: I will begin something today and I will see it through. I'm going to think about what goal I will try for (maybe commit to drawing for 10 minutes everyday, or a daily picture project) and let you all know.
I'm sorry this was not pretty to read or look at, but I'm extremely thankful for the look in the mirror and the recognition that I can begin anytime.
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Junebug's little piece of sunshine for next week's word.
I know exactly how you feel!! The fear of imperfection or incompletion is so paralyzing, it can sometimes be hard to BEGIN!! You can do it...baby steps. I am trying to baby step my way back into reading for exams. I'll check in from time to time to see how your beginning is going!
ReplyDeletewow! & I thought I was the only one (tee! hee!) who struggled with "beginning" something new. I JOURNAL about starting; but seem to let life slip away & seriously lose interest in my original design... saves money! but I feel like I miss some opportunities for self expression. I think that is the reason WEEKWORK is good for me... there is a deadline & I've committed to the "host(ess) to participate...
ReplyDeleteNice music... reminds me of my dad...
Thank you for the comment ladies, it's always so much fun to see that someone reads all my blabbering :) I decided last night that I was going to "begin" to start my readings for my History of the Middle East class I am taking for fun (working on procrastination issue) AND I decided to go back and do an exercise that my favorite art instructor gave me years ago-to spend 30 minutes every day working on the same canvas for 30 days. I'm going to set this up so I can take pictures to document and post them in the hopes that it will make me put the time in.
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