Weekword by Me= Cessation

A pause.
A rest.
A deep and audible, echoing, sigh
A releasing.
A ceasing.

From clashes
insurgencies and diversions.
From war on what makes me solid
Whole, and straining to keep my freedom.

Respite from my internal dialogue
It's time to call intermission.
Halt
Please
Stop. There
I need a cessation from ambition.



I feel overwhelmed almost continuously from the bombardment of feeling like I am not doing enough, saying enough, being present enough, earning enough, reflecting enough, creating enough, being angry enough, being thoughtful enough, being active enough, being motivated enough, and I just want some peace.

Because it's hard sometimes to breathe.
Because I don't like humanity at all so much of the time.
Because I just hurt for so many people and so many injustices that are committed against them everyday.
Because the world feels constantly on the brink of hope and disaster all at once, and I'm so very very very angry at the cruelty, and hatred, and abject greed I see spewed out before me from every media source possible.
Because the rule of "self" has gone unfettered in so many places, in so many hearts, and disaster spreads from so many hands.
Because the tide feels too strong to fight for much longer.

But, I want to focus on releasing myself from suffering, and working on acceptance.

To find time to meditate and be more peaceful because even though I cannot change the world by myself, I can change the way I experience it.

I think I'm just way more tired mentally than I realized, and it's coming out right here on my computer screen. It's why this week's word just fell out of me on Monday without a lot of angst over finding the perfect word.

My apologies for this massive brain dump of unpleasantness, folks. I had no idea really that this was where my head would go for Weekword. I am quite sure that those who have volunteered to play today will have much better posts to go enjoy :)

Please do visit our fellow Weekworders and I think it would be great for John to follow behind me-he always lifts my spirits-so please see John for next week's word. Wishing you all the very best this weekend and a cessation from whatever stressors your might have.

 John
Emma
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