Weekword (super late)=Unity by John

I've had the most terrible last several weeks with a group of women that have been ANYTHING but interested in Unity when it comes to me. I've been incredibly stressed over the amount of overt resistance (emails yelling at me to Just Stop It!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!) I've faced from this group, the accusations of being unprofessional, a liar and disrespectful....I haven't slept well honestly since June. Generally, I'm a late little mouse, but this week, I'm working on last week's word because I've just been miserable and desperately desperate to feel a sense of unity in my life. I hate writing when I'm feeling down, or talking about things that upset me personally like this because I have a sense in writing emotions and hurtful things down, it makes them permanent somehow. I know that writing should help me feel free, but given that this is a public blog it's entirely possible that these same people who have hurt me so much, might read this and just hurt me more. I feel crushed under the weight of misdirected anger. But you know, I'm angry too. I'm angry at myself for letting what a couple of unpleasant, mean spirited older women write about me, get me so flustered and upset. I resent their admonishments of my character, when they don't even know me, and don't care to consider my intentions. I feel nauseous when I try to prepare myself to behave as if nothing has happened-as if their words don't matter through the painful smile on my face when I have to see them. I'm trying to not be childish and just want to take my toys and go home.  This has been such a huge emotional drain on myself and my husband-I feel like I'm having to defend myself from unexpected foes at every turn, and I don't really understand why. This group of neighbors, coming together to help resolve problems, should be an excellent example of unity-it's just obvious that their unity is without me in the picture.


The reason why the world lacks unity, and lies broken and in heaps, is, because man is disunited with himself. 

--Ralph Waldo Emerson

Please do visit John and others with a happier experience of unity from last week and Junebug with Observe for the word this week.